We got to hear your perfect heartbeat a couple of weeks ago. It has quickly become one of my most favorite sounds in the world. More than hearing "Chipotle" or "nap". You were super wiggly and made it hard for the doctor to listen to your heartbeat. We have another ultrasound scheduled on the 22nd and I can't wait to see you! The doctor also told me that my blood sugar numbers have been really good and if we do good on our next glucose test, she will no longer consider me to have Gestational Diabetes OR to be at risk for it. This is a HUGE blessing, baby girl! I have tried hard to eat well and exercise to make sure that you don't weigh 10 pounds when you're born and that I can continue to give your daddy more children. I have a theory that this change is in part to my hormones finally getting regulated thanks to all this lovely estrogen finally being in my body. I feel the best that I've felt in a long time and I have you to thank for that.
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| I think you already look like me. Well, the nose at least. I hope you have chubby cheeks, too! It might be a little too early to tell. Sorry I'm crazy. |
I celebrated my 27th birthday by eating a diaper-sized Chipotle burrito and getting you registered for baby stuff. Who would've thought someone so little needed so much stuff? I also bought some real-life maternity pants and shirts and they are AWESOME. I loved my Bellyband dearly, but this is a whole 'nother level. I also did an internal fist pump when my pants were a size 8 and not 80. Halleluyer!
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| My first "on purpose" belly picture. Looking at it now, I don't feel like I look that pregnant, just bloated. |
This weekend, we visited with friends and family who are already so excited to meet you! They were kind enough to already have presents for you and gave you lots of belly rubs. Too bad you were shy and didn't move around for them. Which reminds me, you like to play this game lately: kick and punch mommy ALL OVER (seriously, sometimes it feels like you're trying to hit me in the b-hole) and then when I grab your daddy's hand to let him feel you, you stop moving and sit really still. As soon as he lets go, you start moving again. Props on already knowing how to play us.
In Biology this week, we've been learning about meiosis and how human life begins. Holy cow! It was spoken to my heart numerous times just how miraculous it is that you are coming to us. In, and of itself, the process makes it seem like none of us should be here, but with our fertility issues, it is truly a miracle that you will be here in 3 and a half short months.
Also- we have picked a name for you!!! We have a list of back-ups, just in case that you don't "look" like your name, but we feel like you are Lucee Maeve and have grown to love that name for you.
Now, here's what your name means:
Lucee (Lucy)- means "light". You have definitely been a light in the darkness for us and so many love you already. Lucy is also mentioned in a Beatles song (your daddy didn't remember this when he suggested the name to me). AND Lucy is the name of a character from C.S. Lewis books ( including The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe). She was later crowned "Queen Lucy the Valiant" and was considered the most faithful of her siblings. We wanted to spell it ending with "ee" because that's how I spell "Ashlee", and I was in part named after a grandfather that I never met, whose name was Lee. I hope your name gives you something to live up to.
Maeve (say it like "maze" but with a v...)- an Irish name meaning "she who intoxicates". Already, you have intoxicated us so much. I'm sure you'll knock us dead when we finally meet.
So there's that! Here's more stuff I hope you'd want to know about me.
#20- 3 significant memories from your childhood:
1- I remember my Aunt Balet (I couldn't say "Violet" when I was younger) letting my brother and I sit on her feet and then walk around while we laughed our heads off. Its just a flash really, but I remember feeling so insanely happy. I cherish that memory a lot now, because she died of breast cancer while I was still young and I don't remember her as well as I would like.
2-I was the one who told your Grams that Tyler would be joining our family. I went in the bathroom and told her "mom, you're going to have another baby, but this time, it's going to be a boy." She didn't know that she was pregnant yet, and laughed when I told her. She then told me to go tell your grandpa because she thought it was that funny. Guess I got the last laugh.
3- When I was in Kindergarten, I slipped on some ice during recess and got hurt really bad. A boy in my class named Kade was very nice to me, helped me up and said, "Let's go find teacher." It was a simple gesture, but it was the first time I remember realizing that someone had served me. He was very nice, at a time when boys and girls thought each other had cooties. His mama taught him right.
#21- Describe your relationship with your parents:
I think I would need a book to write everything, but I love my parents dearly. They have taught me in light and truth and I hope to follow their example. Yes, our relationships could be better with each other, but who can't say that? I have been fortunate to have parents that love me and have supported me in my journey to find happiness. I hope to do the same for you, sweet girl.
#22- Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
In 5 years, I see myself with at least a 4 year old. Your daddy and I hope to be blessed with more children, but we will be more than happy if you're our only little. We are seriously amazed and humbled and blessed and scared and excited to be adding you to our family. In 5 years, I also see myself with a college degree.
In 10 years...I don't care. I just want to be happy. Happy with whatever and wherever I am in life.
Same goes for 15 years. I have come to realize that even with my planning and list-making, life doesn't always go the way I anticipate. I have learned that, often what I experience and learn is far more beneficial than any 10 or 15 year plan that I might draw up for myself.
I do hope to have crossed off a few more things from my Life To-do list, but other than that, I'm trying to keep an open and positive mind.
As Matthew McConaughey, put it:
"There are three things that I need each day. One of them is something to look up to, another is something to look forward to, and another is someone to chase...And to my hero, that's who I chase. When I was 15 years old I had a very important person in my life ask me who was my hero, and I said 'I don't know. I gotta think about that, give me a few weeks.' And I come back two weeks later, and they said 'Who's your hero?' and I said, 'You know, I thought about it. It's me in 10 years. So I turn 25 ten years later, and that same person asked me 'Are you your hero?' and I was like, 'Not even close.' And she said 'Why not?' and I said, 'My hero is me at 35.' So every day, every week, every month, every year of my life, my hero is always 10 years away. I'm never going to attain that, I know I'm not. That keeps me the somebody to keep on chasing.
"So to any of us, whatever those things are, whatever we look forward to, and whoever it is we're chasin', to that I say Amen. To that I say, all right, all right, all right. To that I say just keep livin'."
Keep growing Lucee girl! I love you so much, even though you give me heartburn after I eat ice cream.
Love,
Mama
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